SHE IS BACK: AND A BIT DRAMATIC

365 days later I have come again, in flesh and blood, risen from the ashes; the little shred of the soul that liked to express her feelings by writing. She was buried deep within somewhere under the shackles of mediocre work and life schedule. Busy in her dimension trying to be as close to realism as one could be. Someone who can be deemed as a practical person, someone who thinks in binary code like all mortals.

Someone who shudders at the thought of watching romantic comedies always starring someone who gives up on loves and ends up finding their soulmate by happenstance the very next day. Someone who doesn’t listen to music anymore because it's just too tiresome to appreciate the tunes and the words.

But now that I am back, I will appreciate and respect every magical thing in the world;

The birds and their songs,
the trees and their leaves,
the music and their harmonies,
the winter breeze,
the warm clothes with
a cup of tea, and munchies
lazy afternoons and Netflix on repeat,
Cozy evenings, warm blankets
Were the days always this serene?
Nope! it’s just my medicine speaking
I have had plenty of those in me,
7 when I counted last..
Making me drowsy and weak,
hallucinating a world that no one sees
or maybe they do, who can gaurantee?
Why don’t you write anymore?
I see asking myself with a giddy brain,
I don’t have words left in me; my vocabulary has gone weak
my heart doesn’t know what to speak;
I only think of my work and how to win
be the best, so I don’t regret
the choices I made when I was young,
naïve and scared not unlike the rest,
I think it's better not to dwell on the past,
and try to make a future so bright
so my reservations about being a good manager
never come to light,
I doubt my ability to shine
because deep down
I think maybe I am not so bright, not the best of lot
or ready to win; to be accurate
I think I suck big time…
But that is how we all think,
That doesn’t give us the right,
to quit our jobs and become the
next Shakespeare, Picasso, or Frost
Do you feel the same?
Well then, welcome to this elaborate charade..
 

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